FTM Prosthetics

Due to some dysphoria about my nether regions resulting from a bit of spotting and an almost full blown period coupled with my frustration that some types of bottom surgery that allow one to pee standing up require a hysto, I've been doing a lot more research online to alternatives to phalloplasty and metoidioplasty. (For those who don't know these are the two types of bottom surgery available to FTMs right now.

I don't want a hysto if I can avoid it, yet I'm scared to not have one especially if tomorrow's visit to the radiologist involves finding endometriosis or fibroid tumors (my mom had these in her early forties resulting in a hysto). There's something really invasive to me about having a hysto and scars in that area that I'm not willing to have at this point. Giving up my eggs, even if they've laid dormant all this time is something that I just won't do. I don't plan on having kids myself, but the right to have my eggs removed at some point is something I'm just not ready to part with. Plus I'd feel kinda empty down there without ovaries...I don't know, they've been with me since I was little and body wise, I just want a cock and to produce sperm (something I know will never happen), not anything removed (except at times my uterus).

Anyway, the reason why I bring all this up besides tomorrows Radiologist Appt., UCLA just started covering trans surgeries this year (up to $23,000) which means a hysto and bottom surgery could actually happen. But honestly, I'm not keen on either procedure for what I'd like (to penetrate my partner without have to stop everything and put on a strap-on and also be able to feel inside her, god I'd give almost anything for that. Also, it'd be fantastic to actually pee standing at a urinal or in the woods instead of freaking out in a stall without a door when I'm 60.). Phalloplasty is super dangerous, leaves you with a giant scar on your forearm or thigh and leaves you with a huge penis you need to stick rods in to have sex that is not sensate and you can't urinate out of. Metoidioplasty leaves all the feeling in your cock (*they just use what T gave you) but depending on your urethra you might not be able to pee and honestly with my length I'll maybe be 2 1/2 erect. Metoidioplasty also gives you huge balls (I really don't care for/want balls) via saline implants that sound painful at first and I've read an account in which they deteriorated and infected a guys skin. Yeesh.

So, tonight I came back across a site I'd seen before I was interested in lower surgery and thought about how nice it would be if UCLA would cover a safer, cheaper (and probably better in my opinion) method of giving trans/genderqueer folks cocks. It's a website that makes an ultra realistic prosthetic which you can glue on and wear 24/7:

http://www.ftmprosthetics.com/

2nd Anniversary of having my Boy-chest

Actually it was Jan 9, 2010. But better late then never :) In an attempt to document changes here's a pic first from tonight. Next here's a pic from Sept 09.